Can you..?

i'm really tired... physically, mentally and emotionally...

too many commitments have taken their toll on me...

but not so much as those people who do not value those commitments...

wouldn't it be nice if people would either help me or just leave me alone..?

and i miss those people who do understand me...

it's kind of ironic that i'm the one who didn't value what was theirs...

i guess it goes both ways...

i wonder where my old self has gone..?

i wish my old life would come back to me...

or i could make a new one for myself...

it seems that i always end up trying to help people but can't...

maybe it's true that you really can't give what you don't have...

i'm just really sorry...

you know who you are...

and i hate you...

and again...

i just wish i could make everyone around me happy...

or just make them go away...

or maybe not...

i don't know...

see..?

Test results... ^^_

Your Scholastic Strength Is Deep Thinking You aren't afraid to delve head first into a difficult subject, with mastery as your goal.
You are talented at adapting, motivating others, managing resources, and analyzing risk.

You should major in:

Philosophy
Music
Theology
Art
History
Foreign language

Go through my life for one day...

Go through my life for one day and you'll appreciate yours a hundred times more forever...

weird thing to say, i know...

it just popped into my head...

i just wish...

that life would go back to what it was before...

before people started looking for something else...

and i tried to give them what they wanted...

mae e mae e to osareteiku no?

virginity test (from burr kevin) >>> 40% for me.. >>> this is some weird crap... virginity..?

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Disaster at Bruce's...

at first it was all fun... the block, drinks, pizza, and pictures... sigh...

and then at around 930... i blacked out... haha... i wish someone would tell me what happened... i woke up at around 3 am at bruce's house... really wet and smelly...

oh well... the people who know know it better than i do... anyway, thanks to that guy in bruce's house for giving me a ride home... I AM SO NEVER DOIGN THIS AGAIN... haha...

2nd Baguio Arnis-Kali Invitational

This was the best weekend ever!!! haha... while i got defeated really quickly, i saw a lot of great arnisadors from all over and it was so cool!!!

first off, the fights were great..! all the teams displayed skill and power and they've all inspired me to do better... (and i mut get revenge on that PMA dude) the teams that caught my eye were the Baguio and Benguet all stars, Sphinx and the PMA dudes... t'was all cool and fun... looking forward to my next chance.... sigh... i just wish that my right shoulder wasn't injured at the time... T__T

hehe... i also enjoyed the time i got to spend with my teammates... it's seldom that i get to hang out with them outside the training area... haha...

anyway... i will be posting 5 videos (i actually videod 7 then accidentally deleted 2) and some photos... hehe...

Ateneo Survey from Nikki KUa..

(x) eat at Manang's.. yep...

( ) learn the alma mater - when someone sings it i can sing it though...

( ) get on the dean's list - i wish... >___<

( x) sleep on a bench- SEC benches...!

( ) be a TNT - i want to...

( x) jog around the campus in the evening- Once...

( ) visit the art gallery--I want to too!

(x) know at least one xerox lady, manong, or technician by name - I know 2!

( ) get a Jesuit for a teacher--not yet

( ) itch from higad bites - Not yet

(x) have gotten an F in something - Yes. around 25% of my grades are F's methinks...

(x) watch a La Salle vs. Ateneo UAAP game - super cool!!!

( x) give a powerpoint presentation-- one of the pains of ateneo life...

(x ) study in the caf upstairs-- hai...

(x) watch a T.A play - Yep... i like plays...

(x ) sit on the SEC ledge and watch the stars-- it's nice, really...

(x ) eat in Full House, Martha's Kitchen, and Ken Afford--Ken Afford pa lang

(x) sleep in the lib -- Twice... while studying calculus...

( ) visit Mr. San Andres--Still dont know him

(x) go to the chapel - Yes :)

(x) have gotten a pebble stuck in your shoe/slippers in the middle of the quad -hate this...

() cut class with your block to watch a movie - wah..?

( ) sign up for those institutional (i.e. difficult but brilliant) teachers - i dun get this...

( ) go to CERSA night

( ) have tried siomai rice

( x) learn how to smoke - f++k ateneo for this...

(x) fall in love - f++k it twice...

( x) actually read the book you keep borrowing from the lib -why would i borrow it then..?

(x) play cards during your free time - would you be an atenean without this.>?
(x) dressed in business attire -a couple of times...
(x ) learn to stay awake for more than 24 hours straight --camping out for UAAP...

( ) have gotten side comments from ASSOC

() take Saturday classes - mesa don't have NSTP... hehehe...

( ) go to your immersion-T__T

( ) eat Food for After Thought sandwiches

( x) get a boyfriend/girlfriend - +++++++

(x ) take time to read the vandalism in the CR doors - but they disappeared after a while...

( x) watch Minsan Lang Sila Bata and Macho Dancer for class- hehe...

(x) do a last minute paper - Haha.. English feature paper!

(x) have spent a lot for 1x1 ID pictures - HAha
(x) get exempted from final exams - Physics

(x) attend a college mass - Ash wednesday

(x ) promise to quit smoking - yeah right...

( ) play hide-and-seek in the mini-forest -

(x) know where the best restrooms are on campus - Hahaha.. for me.? MVP... tehy have showers, man...

(x) join an org - lots....

(x) allow yourself to make mistakes - doi?
( ) admire the sacred heart statue in the evening

( x) make a video for a project-- En11 and 12...

( x) have a crush on a teacher - more of department person...

( ) attend a Jesuit retreat

( ) have gotten a parking ticket

(x ) come to school in your crappiest yet most comfy clothes - i like it...

() learn how to use the Bayantel pay phones--

(x) participate in school activities -
( x) catch the Blue Babble Battalion tryouts - the best entertainment.. ^^

(x) ride a tricycle on campus -
(x) find a tambayan -
() admire the marikina valley at night

(x ) go drinking along Katipunan - the life!!!

( ) learn how to beg for a higher grade

(x) use your cuts wisely -

( ) volunteer to be class beadle -
( X) had the worst lottery schedule for reg

(x) admire the trees on campus - i love things green...

(x ) have forgotten about your freecut and gone to that class - hehehe...

( x) eat in the ISO canteen - nice, but far...

(x) be active in your org -
( ) have signed up on an ACP class just because the girl or guy u like signed up for it -
( ) get as many app forms as you can during the job fair

(x) learn how to cram -That's what you enhance in Ateneo

( ) sell tickets (or watch) an org-sponsored movie premiere -
( ) save money to Xerox all of your seatmate's notes--

(x ) have accidentally seen a make-out session-- actually, i'm guilty of this as well... hehe..

(x) check out the Meron Lagoon and Lambingan Bridge- what bridge..?

(x) have dozed off in class - sleep is more like it...

(x ) learn how to work with groupmates from hell - ...

( ) perfect the art of parking on campus

( x) had a bad encounter with one of the guards on campus

( ) develop a love for sisig - what's sisig.?

( ) learn how to pronounce AEGIS properly

( x) have used typing rooms at the library

(x ) have reserved a classroom, AVR, etc. for a class or org function -

( ) have asked the library for an endorsement to research in other libraries--

( ) have lost a perfectly functioning umbrella -
( x) have used consultation hours properly

( ) Looked forward to lab breakage refund, in case you didn't break any equipment

() visit the Guidance Office -

( x) and Infirmary - quite often...

Interesting survey, from Trisha...

Rule #1:
If you open this you GOTTA take it.

Rule # 2:
You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING
unless someone
messages you and asks

Rule #3:
Only answer True or False

Q: Kissed more than one person on your top friends? False
Q: Kissed someone you didn't like? False
Q: You like someone? True
Q: Held a snake? True
Q: Been suspended from school? False
Q: Kissed in the rain? False
Q: Sang in the shower? True
Q: Sat on a roof top? True
Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? True
Q: Broken a bone? False
Q: Shaved your head? False
Q: Played a prank on someone? True
Q: Had/have a gym membership? False
Q: Donated Blood? False
Q: Had your heart broken? True
Q: Broken someone's heart? True

"Who was your last?"
just be 100% truthful
LAST PERSON.

1. You hung out with? Alyo
2. last person you texted? Makoto
3. last person you slept next to? Makoto
4. Went to the movies with? Family
5. Went to the mall with? Family
6. You talked to on the phone? Sunny
7. Made you laugh? Makoto
8. You hugged? Mom
9. you kissed? Mom
10. Made you cry? Nikko

WOULD YOU RATHER...

1. Be serious or be funny? Funny!
2. Drink whole or skim milk? Whole.
3. Die in a fire or get shot? Get shot.
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...

1. Sun or moon? Moon. I'm a night person...
2. dark or light chocolate? light?
3. Left or right? Right.
4. Sunny or rainy? Sunny.
5. Hugs or kisses? Kisses
6. Where do you live? Pasig, Metro Manila
7. Rock or Techno? Neither.
8. Do you want to get married? Maybe
9. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? Cut
10. Do You Cook? Yeah... I like making deserts more though...
11. Current mood? Tanoshii...

IN THE LAST 72 HOURS HAVE YOU...

1. Kissed someone? Yes.
2. Sang? YES. :D
3. Been hugged? YES
4. Like someone you can't have? Yes

Repost this as, ''WHO WAS YOUR LAST?"

Change of mind...

okay, I said I was gonna post a story but I think that it wouldn't do the story justice if i just put it here... haha... it's better off being told personally... anyway, september looks like it's going to be a really cool month, with all the competitions for arnis and fun things to do for orgs and judo... haha... sadly, my acads don't look so good... haha... anyway, keep checking... i'll be posting pics of competitions, parties and all other happenings here... hehe...

Kaizel!!!

okay three things I need to start off with:

1. As you guys may have noticed, I've been gone for a really long time... hehehe... you can blame this on the trio of arnis-acads-orgs... still, I'll be writing sooner or later... hehe... something meaningful, at least...

2. i'm connecting this account to my multiply... i'm just using blogger for posting blogs... it makes things much easier...

3. and lastly, i'm writing this like 5 minutes before my next class so it's a mess...

anyway, in the next post, i'll be telling a weird but deep story and some of the cool things i've been doing recently... haha... mata kondo ne minna!!!

and here's a funny pic i found... courtesy to the owners... ^^_