Kaizel!!!

okay three things I need to start off with:

1. As you guys may have noticed, I've been gone for a really long time... hehehe... you can blame this on the trio of arnis-acads-orgs... still, I'll be writing sooner or later... hehe... something meaningful, at least...

2. i'm connecting this account to my multiply... i'm just using blogger for posting blogs... it makes things much easier...

3. and lastly, i'm writing this like 5 minutes before my next class so it's a mess...

anyway, in the next post, i'll be telling a weird but deep story and some of the cool things i've been doing recently... haha... mata kondo ne minna!!!

and here's a funny pic i found... courtesy to the owners... ^^_

Still Alive...

Haha... Summer's been fun, right..? I know i was totally down and depressed a few weeks ago but i feel so full of fun today... hehehe... here are some highlights:

1. I went to Punta Fuego..! I never knew there was sucha beautiful place in the Philippines... wow... hehe... lots of pics in my multiply... hehe... http://kevinikhe.multiply.com/photos/album/5

2. I went Paintball with my blockmates!!! hehe... I've been spending a lot of time with my block recently... I suppose this is a good thing... I really missed them... I don't think it will be a problem this sem 'cause they're my classmates in half of my subjects... cool, eh..? (check out the pics for our drinking session in my multiply and MoA Paintball in the Block S multiply...) http://supahblock.multply.com

3. Arnis training was cool... I almost died... hehe... bleeding hands, 5 hours a day, 5 times a week, more than 8,000 practice strikes a week, more than 500 push-ups and weird physical training... 'nuff said, it's a miracle i'm still alive...

4. I've also been busy working for both ALAC and ASEC... hehe... we moved rooms for ALAC, having a lot of funny moments while we were at it and are making a Manual for Exchange Students in ASEC for the OIP...

Lots more happened, but I just wanna say that i miss some of my other friends too... i haven't seen some of them for a while now, especially a couple of people i'd really want to talk to... so err... haha... whatever... let's all be happy...

Aosugiru sora...

hahaha... contrary to what other people think, i am still alive and kicking... life's been pretty much fun and games this summer, despite a couple of major setbacks... haha... anyway, some fun things during this summer were: 1.) paintball and outing with the block at the SM Mall of Asia, 2.) practice for the World Cyber Games - Starcraft Broodwar and, 3.) hanging out with friends in Katipunan...

haha... i'm sleepy... so i'll keep this short... haha... i'm doing this just to show i'm still alive... anyway, there... paintball was cool... really expensive though... and to think the girls got the most points... haha... anyway, you can find more photos in the block s multiply... just ask me where... after this, i just realized that i've never spent time with the block... hahaha... you can say that i freelance around the school cliques... hahahah... weird... anyway...

about the WCG... the good part = practice was fun... the bad part = i missed the preliminaries... sucks... i know... but oh well... hahaha... i guess that means more time for practice... btw, if you want a pro-ish match, let's go look for buddies...h ehehe...

oh well, i hope school starts soon.. i'm getting hyped already... hahaha... okoko... see you guys in a week or so.. oyasumi... ^^

Nijigasumi...

i guess the law of equivalent exchange really doesn't work in this world, huh..? if it is working, then the person who ever thought of that should get ready for one hell of a beating... How can you say that after everything I've done..? do you mean to say that all that effort and sacrifice only amounts to that..? bs..! anyway, i know i've done what i could, and i can't do anything about it... i'll just have to be ready to put up a good face to the world... ^^ things go better that way... all i can do is wait for a person that would care to listen... moitai...


I guess that since this is a really big change in my life, i suppose that i should change my mindset as well... part of that is my adopted japanese name... it's that word to the left... it means "rainbow haze"... someone told me it was emntioned in some anime... hahaha... i don't care... you could take literally, but i take a deeper meaning to heart... oh well... i think i'm going to cut this post real short... i'm not really in the mood to type... i'm closer to crying actually... anyway, good luck to you all... summer's the best..!

Boku no Tomodachi - My Friends...

haha... my freshman year's over already... it's both a sad and happy thing... haha... i wish it lasted longer, but at the same time i'm gald i'm done with it... confusing..? nah... people know i work well with chaos and contradictions...

hmm... since i can't think of anything else to write, i'll make this post a tribute to my friends... haha... can't imagine living without them... so err... let's start off with my course blockies...

Block S is the best block ever..! the superblock, hahaha... i really feel bad not being able to spend time with them... sigh... it'll all change during the summer... hahaha... anyway, there's karenini and ralpo in the picture... hahah...

and here are some of my english blockies to the right... they're really cool... hahaha... while my course blockies taught me how to drink, they taught me style... hahaha... some of the people i'm closest to in Ateneo are either here or have super-close ties to this block...

thank you guys for the parodies and films... haha... way cool... hahah... to right is jean, pam and aileen... hahaha...

Here's keila, maica and karl nii-san... somehow, i managed to become close to a lot of comtech people... i started going out with some of them recently... haha... they're cool...

out of all my friends, they probably have the "cleanest" trips... hahaha... no smoking and drinking here boys... hahaha... and last, are the "special" people... wahahaha... there's rules, who's like a big bro or something close... he doesn't know what i really think about him... and nikko-san... the best person ever... hahaha... i really wish that people would know how much i appreciate them being my friends... hahaha... i'm tired... hahaha... good night people...

rules-san and nikko-san... hahaha... i love everyone... hahaha... sorry for the pics btw, i'm toying around with my cam...

hell week version 2.0

Okay, before anything, let me tell you that:

1. It's double hellweek, and that anything I say probably has it's roots and/or is influenced by my current mental state of near insanity...
2. This is my first time to try include pictures in my blog, so I'm asking you guys for tips and comments on how to better use them on my blog...
3. This is the sheep costume I wore for half a schoolday for my En12 class. I know I look stupid and weird, but hey, it's like a once in a lifetime chance to goof off and get out of my usual emo self...

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Something that bothers me is that sometimes, people from other schools tend to belittle what we call in Ateneo "hellweek"... people seem to think it's just something like the school cramming everything into those two weeks... well, they are right about that part... the thing they don't get though, is that it's not the projects, groupworks, papers nor the tests... the thing that drives Ateneans (most of them at least) insane is the efficiency, coordination and planning you need to make it to the deadline... it holds true to everything, especially groupworks and study times... just take my botany groupwork for example... we planned it for months, went to baguio to get it done, and yet we still needed to cram (a bit) on the 2 days before the presentation and on the same days our Ma18/20 and Bi8 tests were held... nasty... we did make it though, thanks to careful planning and efficient work...

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hey, you know that guy wearing white..? he's the reason i'm taking hellweek on pretty well... (i hate going near mushy so don't complain)
seriously, this guy has made me really happy again... so if you ever see me smiling around for no apparent reason at all, thank this guy... wahahaha... anyway, I wish luck to all those experiencing the undead-turning effects of hellweek... may we all survive and enjoy the summer...

Baguio and Dagupan...

This week was both heaven and hell... haha... i can't believe that travelling was this much fun...

Baguio: shit... the flower festival was so cool... what's more cool is that we got to abuse our connections and got top seat views of the Panagbenga and got to interview the founder of the flower festival... great, huh..? Another great thing is that i got to spend a lot of time with my friends Rules, Jic, Keila and Clara... we're never gonna forget this weekend... we even played Forbidden Questions... haha... that really spiced everything up... We all now have trash to talk about... i really apologize to the super innocent people whose minds were violated during this episode... nyahahaha....

Dagupan: one of the coolest things to ever happen to me... we left rules in baguio; it was really a pain to leave him there... while the road travel was soo annoyingly long, the dinner and the time spent at jic-san's house was real worth it... we played cards, chatted and everything... so cool... and after the girls left, we had some fun... tonikaku... everything just went well... we left dagupan at three am... i wish i had more trips like this... cool cool cool...

on other things: Nikko-san... you know it... nyahahah...

and so it seems...

i hate this world... why is it that no matter how many good things i do, no matter how much i try to set things right, it never works out... all this world ever does is to get my hopes up only to sent them crashing down later...

i just wish it would end... i'm tired... it's just too much...

quoting my drunk self:

"you say I'm your friend... but if you can't accept me wholly as I am, then I'd rather be nothing to you... Friendship doesn't work with halves..."

kuso... i don't know who to hate more: myself, my so-caled friends, or the world... there's only so much a person can take... it was way better when I wasn't showing my happy face to the world... so, upon the world's request (courtesy of so-called friends), I'll go back to the normal me... it'll be better I tell you... no more plastic faces and what not... no more dealing with insensitive people... haha... good luck everyone...

THE sheep of THE Ateneo...

Today was a very weird day... I dunno why... Probably because I was wearing a full-body sheep costume... hehe... alright... I know it's stupid and outrageous, but the hell, the fun and experience was worth it... It's not everyday that I get to do such senseless and fun things... haha...

I should really thank (kuya) Danvic for letting me borrow the costume... haha... i know it was a devil's pact promising not to call him kuya anymore, but i don;t think I can keep the promise though... After all, I'm very impulsive and weird...

Haha... oh well, it's been a fun week... Arnis sparring is gonna start soon... The strike and block practices are fun (for me, at least) and are pretty much mindless and effortless whacking for me... haha... shame that the english 12 paper's gonna ruin next week when all the good parts come...

haha... everything that's been hapening this week has been very nice, specially love life-wise... haha... i hope these good times will last a bit longer... i rarely get a break... oh well, oyasumi...

Two hearts down... One more lonely person in the world...

When I was a child, I used to think that loneliness would be a feeling alien to me when i grew up... I guess I was wrong...

I guess I'm really a big disappointment... I know I've been doing a lot of great stuff for other people and everything, but how come it is that person I love the most, taisetsuna tomodachi, that finally broke this wall of a heart..?

My first and only real kiss... I can still remember it, and it makes me even sadder... I really expected that person to appreciate me and accept me as who I am... I know he does, but it's cruel that i can no longer feel the love and warmth of acceptance... Something's missing and if i don't find out what it is, I'm gonna break soon... boku no kokoro itai...

They say that at times like this, you have your friends to help you... It's kind of weird to think that the help and understanding came not from my "friends" but from people i didn't expect it from... There's my english block barkada, my blockies and other friends... Most of them are real understanding, but there are few who I can talk to about my feelings... One of them probably would try to listen, but I know he feels uncomfortable with it... it's hard, but finding someone who cares is sometimes the only way you'd feel nice again...

I don't know what to do... I just want to go back to those times where there was nothign wrong with me... when i had no reason to be insecure, and to be disliked by other people... I just can't think of a reason why such things are happening to me...

right now, i'm not lonely but angry... for my so called "friends", i'm going to wait for your honest reply... namaiki na kimi no sunao ni henji... not one of words but of thought... i just want to get out of this pathetic state I'm in and I need your help...