Just a few more hours before 2009...

well, i still can't decide whether this year was a bad one or a good one...

what i can tell though, is that lots of both happened...

i've lost a lot of things, some of which were very dear to me...

but i also gained a lot in return, which i hope i can use to become a better person...

still, a lot of my demons continue to haunt me...

but then, i know they're always gonna be there so what the hell...

i'm just gonna try and make the best out of the coming year...

thanks to everyone for the year!!! haha

and special thanks to three guys there. haha. =P

I hate my stitches || I suck at shopping

I. I can barely open my mouth and the stitches are annoying me to no end...

This is more trouble than i thought. 

Dreading the time when i have to do this again in the summer...

II. On a lighter note, i finally managed to shop for clothes...

I usually end up with nothing in my hands when i go shopping because of the "no green rule"...

Dropping it surely made my work easier.

haha. have to thank my mom lots though. She's a better fashion person than anyone in the family.

Christmas Post!!! =D

I. Gifts and thank you's. ^^_

II. Family Starcraft. =D

III. Random. D:

I. Hahaha. not a bad haul this year. While i realy don't think gifts are that important for christmas, i still thank everyone lol. it's still way fun. =D

Haul: canned boxers, shirts (lots =D everyone keeps giving me shirts), sexy man cardboard box, room signs, small squishy thing with tentacles, money (lots too ^^_),  jacket, sidebag, chocolates (>___>), lotsa chocolate lollipops, small bag, CD's, and a blu-ray movie disk (i don't have a player -___-), and others. hahaha.

II. One thing i really like about christmas gatherings is that most of the family (from my younger tito's and under) are gamers. well, not gamers in the sense that they play real lots, but at least everyone knows to play the family game: Starcraft!

hehe. i missed our 8 player free for alls and other games. (i got beaten up by a probe rush when i was still a beginner by my tito. =D) fun still, even if the gathering's a bit smaller this year...

III. I MISS YOU GODDAMNIT!!!! ^___________^

-__- : My mind is my battlefield and sanctuary...

i asked myself whether i lost or won...

but i realized that was wrong.

the battle's not even over yet.

those...

for those we never bother to listen to,

those who try to hear the beating of our own hearts.

for those we never say goodbye to,

those whose eyes are always on us as we walk out of the door.

for those we never bother to say hello to,

those who whisper goodbye to us with eyes to the floor.

for those we barely give a damn about,

those who couldn't bear to see pain on our faces.

let us at least thank ourselves.

My mind is both by battlefield and my sanctuary...

My mind is both by battlefield and my sanctuary...

however, i'm now at a point where i can't really determine...

whether i've won the day's battle...

or if i've lost the last few things that have been keeping me sane.

best night ever.

dining with you

under the bright, full moon

of a cold and windy naga night,

in an open cafe

along the street

filled with trees and

lit up only by Christmas lights.

best night ever.

no title.

Once, i thought that the point of studying languages was to be able to say something like "i love you" in a hundred different ways.

Now, i realize that the point is to actually know that all the words in the world are never really enough to say some things.

no title...

i've always thought that the beauty in studying languages

could be found in being able to say "i love you" in a thousand different ways.

but then when it all comes down to it, one will realize that the point

was to know that words alone are never enough.

no title...

i've always thought that the beauty in studying languages

could be found in being able to say "i love you" in a thousand different ways.

but then when it all comes down to it, one will realize that the point

was to know that words alone are never enough.