tama na

hindi kayo marunong makiramdam...

it's enough...

it's nice knowing that someone feels the same way as you do...

or at least looks at the world in the same way...

he might or might not care...

but he's there, and that alone makes the burden lighter...

i wish i had never met you...

i hate being your friend...

it's close, but not close enough...

and i know it's as close as i'll ever get to you...

I'm addicted... crap...

happy nights... happy days...

cool, breezy days and hot, steamy nights...

okay, that was creepy, but what the hell... haha...

the past couple of weeks have been really nice...

the highlights being my promotion to yellow belt, playing wow and my mom coming back home... yay...

wish me the best... or for things to just get a little better...

and i thank you all that make my days fun... and the jerks who try to ruin it... haha...

'cause I wouldn't be the same and the day not so fun if you weren't there...

haha... i just wonder why the empty but happy feeling is back again... i wonder why...

Arnis Nationals: Philippine Olympic Festival

well, this was my first national competition... and well, i guess it was okay...

it was really fun, especially since i got to meet a lot of cool people, and spend the day with my teammates... it was fun, tiring and... uhmm.... educational..? haha...

lemme see... my first fight was against the davao coach... i don't know if i did good or maybe it was that he didn't do good... i dunno... haha... then my second fight was with the zamboanga dude... (was he their coach or what..?) he was good... he was able to dodge my attacks and well, hit me harder and faster than i could even hope to do... i saw the finals fight, and he lost... and he even fought so many times better their... i dunno if i stood a chance...

seriously though, i kind of feel disappointed... while i did get bronze, i don't feel so good about it... i don't really know... i think it's either i feel i don't deserve it or i was just expecting myself to do better... just something like what gene's stat said: second place means first loser... haha... or maybe i'm just expecting too much...

still, i'm gonna do better... next year, i'll be aiming for the top... i dun care where i fall... haha... train train train!!!

Why is it always like this..?

Actually, i don't really get what's wrong with me nowadays...
I have no reason to be sad (probably except failing calculus) and yet, i feel really really tired...
Not like my usual mentally, emotionally and physically tired state...
More of... tired of living...
I know it sounds really ungrateful, emo, gay and stupid... and i actually don't like myself thinking this way... (that's why i don't get it lol)

so.... i try to cheer myself up... and i'm really grateful that there are people who actually do that...
my blockmates, teammates and other friends... haha...
sometimes, i really do want to skin most of them alive... but then, life would be really boring... haha...

currently, my mind is set on the arnis nationals... i hope that i'll get over this bout of weakness and weirdness by competition time... i really want to give my best... since i won't be showing up as much at training this semester...

sigh... haha... fun sembreak... fun death... haha... i dunno what to say...but i think i'll stay alive for a long time more... ^^

Survey, from Magi... let's be happy...

urvey time then..
1. real name - Kevin William Serafico Enriquez
2. like it –yes
3. single or taken - complicated...
4. zodiac sign- virgo
5. male or female - male
6. elementary - Lourdes School of Mandaluyong
7. high school - Lourdes School of Mandaluyong
8. college - Ateneo de Manila University
9. eye color - dark brown
10. hair color – black/brownish
15. are you a health freak - not really...
16. height - 5'5"
17. do you have a crush on someone - malamang....
18. do you like yourself - frustrated nga lang...
19. piercings – none
20. tattoos - none
21. righty or lefty - righty

FIRSTS-
22. first surgery - that one...
23. first piercings - none
24. first best friend - killed him...
26. first sport – football
27. first pet - turtle < dead
28. first vacation - pampanga.>?
30. first crush – i can't remember na... haha...

CURRENTLY-
49. eating - nothing...
50. drinking - c2
51. about to - sleep
52. listening to - nagareboshi by homemade kazoku
53. waiting for – Philippine Olympic Festival
54. wearing - shirt and pants
56. want to get married - i don't think i'll do that...
67. careers in mind – i dunno... teacher..?

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE/SAME SEX

68. lips or eyes - eyes on both
69. hugs or kisses - hugs for the first, kisses for the other one... haha
70. shorter or taller - shorter/taller
71. tan skinned or light skin - tan on both
72. romantic or spontaneous - spontaneous
73. dark or light hair - dark
74. muscular or normal - athletic then muscular
75. hook-up or relationship - relationship then hook-up
76. similar to you or different - different on both

HAVE YOU EVER-
78. kissed a stranger - yes..
80. broken a bone - sprain lang...
81. climbed up a tree - di ko kaya...
82. broken someones heart - yes... haha... buti nga...
83. turned someone down - yes...
84. liked a friend as more than a friend – duh...

DO YOU BELIEVE IN-
86. yourself - frustrated nga...
89. Santa Claus - dun sa totoo... si St. Nicholas... hindi yung may reindeer hehe...
90. kiss on the first date - done that... dunno why you have to "believe"
91. angels - honestly.. yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY-
92. Is there one or more people you want to be with right now? - yes
93. Do you hang out with these people? - yah
94. Are you cool? - cool people don't know they're cool nor do they think of it... syempre...hindi...

LASTS-
95. Text message – uuuh... to Pami: text mo ko pag manila ka na...
96. Received call - mama
97. Call made to - keith (checking number)
98. Comment on friendster - i don't use friendster
99. Missed Call - josh
100. Person you hung out with – my blockmates at veejay's house party
103. You talked to - siblings
104. You slapped - someone's butt... o.O
105. Said I love you to – parents

Can you..?

i'm really tired... physically, mentally and emotionally...

too many commitments have taken their toll on me...

but not so much as those people who do not value those commitments...

wouldn't it be nice if people would either help me or just leave me alone..?

and i miss those people who do understand me...

it's kind of ironic that i'm the one who didn't value what was theirs...

i guess it goes both ways...

i wonder where my old self has gone..?

i wish my old life would come back to me...

or i could make a new one for myself...

it seems that i always end up trying to help people but can't...

maybe it's true that you really can't give what you don't have...

i'm just really sorry...

you know who you are...

and i hate you...

and again...

i just wish i could make everyone around me happy...

or just make them go away...

or maybe not...

i don't know...

see..?

Test results... ^^_

Your Scholastic Strength Is Deep Thinking You aren't afraid to delve head first into a difficult subject, with mastery as your goal.
You are talented at adapting, motivating others, managing resources, and analyzing risk.

You should major in:

Philosophy
Music
Theology
Art
History
Foreign language

Go through my life for one day...

Go through my life for one day and you'll appreciate yours a hundred times more forever...

weird thing to say, i know...

it just popped into my head...

i just wish...

that life would go back to what it was before...

before people started looking for something else...

and i tried to give them what they wanted...

mae e mae e to osareteiku no?